Lost My Temper

i lost my temper

i hate myself

wanna ask forgiveness back

but..how?

Ya Allah, please show me d way

i feel so regret what i have done

wish can turned back d time

*just because of 'air sirap' i mess my sunday. i'm so stupid. please forgive me!

My Friday Fairy Tale

can i call it a 'fairy-tale story'..?

yeah, i think it suit

hahaha..~

this is not what i want

yes, i wish we can be a friend again

and i know this is your wish too

but i want it happen naturally

let d time decide..when, where and how

its you saying this,

"..i know its not easy, not a month, two or three months but..,

it took a year, two years or maybe more.."

but..what happened today?

maybe its too easy for you

or maybe you already forget what happened

it too drastic for me

yeah, i know and you know

both of us can be a good actor/actress

so, what you see today

is not me..i'm such a good actress right?

laughing, joking, crazy as usual, talking too much

we meet like before this

like nothing happened

yes, a very good drama-queen

as soon as we apart

my tears drop without ask for it

for a few hours back..i'm strong

such a good hypocrite

all the memories play in my mind

its seems happened yesterday

i miss d good all days

this will end soon..after finish d practical

it will be the end of my drama

too tired to be a clown all d time

just to make everyone happy but me?

*this evening i eat roti john plus teh o ais limau and watch d sunset ALONE. all this place have its own story and memories :(

What Else I Can Say

i know this thing would happen

when i knew we're under d same advisor

somehow it make me happy

because we can meet up again

just now i received a phone call

ask for my help to meet d advisor

honestly..i dunno what should i say

like.."ditelan mati mak diluah mati bapak"

but..somehow it too hard

to think that we will face to face

since 16 April night

this would be our 1st time

to meet eye on eye

can i make it? am i strong enough?

there is only myself to make d decision

wearing a clown costume to be a good actress

i do this just because my mum said,

"..pity and don't be a cruel person.."

then..i choose to be a hypocrite

*it seems to be a good scene this coming friday where d good actress ever in d world do her part. big clapped :D

Best Award For The Clown

a place to hide

a place to invisible

a place being transparent

you will not hurt anyone next to you

you will always laugh out loud

you will always making a joke

you will always to make others smile

you will always try hard to make sure everyone happy

but..the fact is

you're crying out loud

you're been hurting so badly

you're in hardly pain

melancholy perhaps

pokerface? fake face?

hypocrite? plastic?

it doesn't matter

as long as the clown do a good job

no one will noticed the reality

and the clown should be awarded

best actress ever in the world

*Sometime what you want isn't always what you get, but in the end what you get is so much better than what you wanted. Knocked the door then you will find out what is behind the door.

Kewajiban Solah 5 Waktu

Salam Denai KehidupanKu,

Alhamdulillah, syukur aku masih diberi kesempatan menulis di blog ini dgn izinNya. Setiap detik yg b'lalu adalah sgt b'harga. Bagaimana kita menghargainya? Tepuk dada tanyalah iman. Hajat di hati nak b'kongsi rasa sesama para pembaca [kalau ada lah..eheh :D]

Hurmm..dr kecik mak ayah kita dah ajar, masa tadika, kat sekolah agama tentang "Solat Itu Tiang Agama". Dulu cikgu selalu tanya.."kamu, sebutkan 5 rukun islam.." maka jawablah si anak murid;

• Mengucap 2 kalimah syahadah
• Solat 5 waktu sehari semalam
• Berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan
• Membayar zakat
• Menunaikan fardhu haji

Jadi dalam Rukun Islam dah cukup terang & jelas kewajiban yg wajib di tunaikan bagi setiap anak adam & hawa yg mengaku dirinya orang islam di muka bumi ini. Salah satunya, solat 5 kali sehari semalam. Tak ada satu alasan pun yg boleh seseorang itu meninggalkan solatnya sekalipun kita sedang sakit. Kerana islam itu sgt cantik, Allah S.W.T telah meletakkan pelbagai panduan & kelonggaran utk umatNya menunaikan solat. Jika tak boleh solat b'diri solat duduk, tak boleh duduk solat secara baring, jika tak boleh juga gunalah isyarat mata. Indah sungguhkan islam? Allahuakbar..!

1. Hazrat ‘Ubadah bin Somit RA telah berkata,

“Kekasihku Rasulullah S.A.W telah mewasiatkan kepadaku tujuh perkara. Sabda Baginda S.A.W,

“Jangan menyengutukan ALLAH TAALA dengan sesuatu apapun, walaupun kamu akan dibunuh atau dibakar atau disalib. Jangan meninggalkan solah dengan sengaja, kerana sesiapa meninggalkan solah dengan sengaja akan terkeluar daripada agama Islam. Jangan melakukan maksiat, kerana perbuatan itu akan menyebabkan kemurkaan ALLAH TAALA dan jangan minum arak, kerana perbuatan ini adalah ibu segala masiat.”

(Hadith riwayat Imam Tabarani)

2. Hazrat Abu Zar RA berkata,

“Suatu ketika Rasulullah SAW keluar pada musim sejuk semasa daun-daun gugur, lantas Baginda memegang dahan dari sebatang pokok maka daun-daun tersebut mulai gugur dengan lebat dari dahan tersebut. Baginda SAW bersabda, ” Wahai Abu Zar.” Saya menyahut, “Saya, Ya Rasulullah.” Kemudian Baginda SAW bersabda, “Apabila seseorang Islam menunaikan solah untuk mendapat keredhaan ALLAH TAALA, dosanya gugur seperti gugurnya daun-daun ini dari pokok.”

(Hadith riwayat Imam Ahmad)

*Ya Allah, aku hanya sekadar menyampaikan peringatan buat para pembaca & juga buat diri sendiri agar tidak t'makan dgn hasutan syaitan laknatullah yg sentiasa mencari helah utk umat Nabi S.A.W meninggalkan solat. Soal duniawi juga penting tapi ia haruslah seimbang dgn bekalan kita semua utk di dunia yg kekal abadi nanti. Dunia ini hanya pinjaman jadi kita harus sentiasa ingatkan diri supaya 'perisai perang' yg bakal dibawa di akhirat kelak dpt melindungi dari azab seksaan di alam barzakh. Wallahu'alam...