Rindu Kamu Semua

[dari kiri: kak reen, kema, mal, laily, nana, ecah, fida]

bila belek-telek gambar ni

ada bermacam rasa dlm hati

rindu, sedih, happy, etc

my classmate masa diploma at kpmm

asalnya 13 org satu class

tp bila grad hanya 8 org

[tengku takde dlm gambar]

mana pergi berlapan lah kami

lecturer nak ajar pun senang :p

macam-macam yg kami kongsi bersama

bergaduh pun pernah

apatah lagi bermasam muka

tp tu semua yg buat kami rapat

walaupun berlapan

tp kecohnya macam 80 org

miahahahaha :D

cepatnya lah masa berlalu

empat dr kami dah kahwin

tinggal lg tiga otw lah tu

[tp aku otw pun tak laie] eheh~

tiba-tiba jumpa gambar ni

mula lah teringat balik, huhu

apa-apa pun aku nak wish yg terbaik utk semua

classmate yg pernah bersama-sama dgn aku dulu

alhamdulillah,

semua dah kerja

kecuali tengku further study

kawan, teman, sahabat

adalah hadiah yg paling berharga dlm hidup aku

aku sayang semua!!!

doa ini sentiasa iringi kamu semua

moga hidup kita semua sentiasa

dalam lindungan rahmat Ilahi

InshaAllah

*bila agaknya dapat gather dgn kamu semua. miss a lot~!!!

Dear Rasyidah...

dear my beloved friend,

[you still remember those words syida? you wrote it for me 6 years ago.]

[1st pic was taken at dinner batch in 2007]

Yes, i have many friends but only a few besfriends, where i use to call them 'sahabat or teman'. i wanna share my stories one of my 'sahabat'. i met her 6 years ago during further my diploma at Kolej Profesional Mara Melaka. she is transfer student from batch senior because she want to change course so she join my batch in 2005. I'm doing my Entrepreneurship while she is in Accounting. i don't know how we can be so closed. i'm not her course-mate or even her roommate or housemate. we only met during prayer at surau, at college. yeah, we have same interest maybe. she invite me to join 'naqib naqibah'. and yeah, i joined not because of her. i just..like it. she help me a lot in accounting and economics. yeah i hate these 2 subjects! haha. we also joined JPA3 since it is compulsory to all students. so there is so much things that we shared together. thoughts about many things, ideas, brainstorm, argue sometime. hehe. she is best student in my batch. she is good in english. she is good in islamic. she is good in table tennis and many things. when i moved out from hostel, we don't have much time together. but still met at the college. yeah, time is running so fast. during in my final year 2006..i think in semester 5, there is something happen. the worst thing! i wish i could turn back for what had happen :( it is so tragic to share here. it make our relationship split. i don't know why, until today i still asked myself.."why it happen? i don't have the answer". then she transfer to KPM Beranang. since then, i lost contacts with her. but we managed to get back during our batch dinner on 2007. we not argue anymore, we just friends like before. but..not like our 1st met. hmmm..~ then, i know she further studies at Scotland in Accounting, then she get married with British man, Salahuddin Sheldon Stokes. we keep in touch through FB, chatting, and sometime she call me. after that, we just met eye on eye after 3 years. in 2010, during her walimah with Sheldon at Sungai Buloh. She gave birth Sufia Nafeesa Stokes on end of 2009 if i'm not mistaken. she still study and become a mother. so surprising me, she could managed to be a wife to a different cultural and religion husband, mother and student at the same time! she is a superwoman..!! i'm really adore and respect her because she could make one man from a different religion to become a muslim. that was so amazing! i'm so proud of you my friend...Rasyidah bt Abd Rahim :)

[during walimah syida & sheldon in 2010 at Sg Buloh. gazilion thanks to cik ain who bring & drive along d way from Melaka to Sg Buloh just to met syida, sufia & sheldon. i owe you forever ain..~]

still have many things to share here, maybe next entry. huhu. i'm so happy to see you happy syida!!! wish for your happines with your new family far away from Malaysia. hope you become a good wife, lovely ummi, true muslimah, and finish your study with a flying colors!!! i'm always pray for you my 'sahabat'. take care syida, big hug from me for sufia. she is an angel and amazing gift from Allah S.W.T. InshaAllah, amin!

forgive me for everything i had done to you, syida! i really wish that it won't happen but what is done can't be undone. its written to be happen. i want you to know that, i'm regret for what happen. maybe it our mistakes. Allah have decide what is d best for us. thank you become my 'sahabat' syida. love you, always!!!

*friends is a gift from Allah S.W.T. always appreciate our friends! say hi, pray for their happines, give a help if you can help. that is what friend for, right? :)

The Day

on 15 May 2011

i'm officially

graduate from UiTM

BBA (Hons) Marketing

never ever thought

i will further my study

until to d university

because i'm not good at school

compare to my bro & sis

last minute decision i made

gazillion thanks to whom

encourage & force me

to go for d convocation

alhamdulillah

i been there

walk down to d stage

hold my scroll

just for my

mak & ayah

after finish d ceremony

straight away call ayah

too crowded there

then i saw both of them

waiting for me

ayah hug & kiss me

until i saw his eye with tears

then, mak also cried

Ya Allah,

thank you for give me that moment!!

i got a bouquet

of white roses

my favorite :)

thanks mak!!!

and thanks to my love sis

wish me on my big day

thanks nye,

i do really appreciate it..~!!!

also thanks to pakndak's family

give d best hospitality

send us until at d UiTM

then pick us

thanks again!

last but not least

grateful & thankful

to The All Mighty

Allah S.W.T

who give me

a chance & d opportunity

to feels all d great moments

after 2 and half years

of my study

*congratulations to all UiTM students for d 74th Convocation Ceremony.

05.05.11

time is running so fast~

another 10 days

for my convocation

in d previous entry

i said i will attend

:|

but

i still don't do anything!!

this morning received

sms from UiTM

a reminder

to answer as soon as possible

whether attend or not

to d convocation

seriously

really want to go

maybe this is my last chance

[if i'm not further for master]

for me to feel wearing d mortabot

to hold my scroll from dean,

make mak & ayah proud of me

:( :(

i thought to ask if i can transfer

my convo at UiTM Seri Iskandar

but don't have time to call

too busy for a few weeks lately :(

arghhh..~

sometime i wish

that i NEVER know you

from d beginning!!!

*mood: dilemma. melancholy. not in d mood~!!!

Digging A Scar

365 days back

around 10 pm

all d truth reveal

it is in d prayer

by an innocent girl

who asked for it

that girl face with d fact

that she is just

a friend..~

a friend who accompany

a friend who share a jokes

a friend when lonely

a friend who share about life

a friend who hearing a complaining

a friend when 'd true girl' not around

a friend till d girl

get confuse

and doubt with her thought

and that friend confess

have a same thought like that girl

but friend cannot do it

because friend have a 'true girl'

by then, that girl go away

with d tears and shameful

that girl do a mistake

d mistake where

she judging too quickly

just based on outside

so, it is her fault from d beginning

that's what we called

LIFE

*H A P P Y__A N N I V E R S A R Y*

I'm Strong Girl

i made d decision

i'm going to d convocation

i just do it because of

my parents

mak really want to

see me hold d scroll

at d stage

:(

i'm doing this

just...to make

mak & ayah

smile & happy..~

even though it will

hurt me badly

i will get d strength

by wearing a costume

yerp, d clown

d actress will do d best

to make sure everyone happy

*seem like d clown have to action back just like before :)

Upside & Downside

it's quite a long time

not to post something here

busy? oh, is't?

just try to make busy~

miahahaha :p

upside? downside?

let's go with d upside first

ah, my convocation

for my first degree

its just around d corner

very big congratulation

to myself! you did it girl :)

went to student portal this morning

to check my name

oh yeah, saw lots of name

and i just...saw his name

2nd class upper~

as you said last year,

you wish to finish study

at least with 2nd class upper

so, you did it man!!

bravooooo~~

and its one of my wish too

i know i can't achieve

1st class, its too high for me

so we promise together

at least we will

walk down to d stage

to hold our scroll

with 2nd class upper

did you remember that?

ah, i bet nope!

so, d downside

am i really going to d convocation?

i don't ever know

will or will not..~

*Ya Allah, am i stupid? am i childish?

maybe it's d time where i have to put d clown costume again. sigh :|

Cadbury Eyebrows

just cute

both of them

right?

gagagaga..~

ah, just remember

this commercial break

its one of my officemate's favorite

i mean during my practical at Noris

they used to act, sing n song with this video

heri, erryn, hafiz, farihan

i think just 4 of them

who was love to act when 'our boss' not around

[ah, i wish i have d video. huhu~]

and d rest will start laugh and laugh like hell :D

miahahahahahahah...~

*oh, i do miss my practical. more specific, my student life.

we can do whatever we want. but not in the career like now. hmmmm~

Nostalgia by Shoutul Amal

Terkenang sebuah memori lalu
Kisah persahabatan kita bersama
Di dalam satu pengajian
Menuntut ilmu dan pengalaman
Mengingatkanku pengorbananmu
Terpahat padu di kalbuku

Bersama rakan taulan dan guru
Tawa riangmu menghiburkan hatiku
Indahnya suasana ketika itu
Terjalin ukhuwah sejati

Nasihatmu sungguh bermakna bagiku
Mengenalkanku erti kehidupan
Susah payah kita hadapi bersama
Itulah asam garam dalam kehidupan

Ya Tuhanku tabahkan hatinya
Kuatkan semangatnya untuk menghadapi hidup
Limpahkanlah maghfirah dan kasih sayang-Mu
Agar hidupnya sejahtera di dunia akhirat

*khas buat 'mereka' yg aku panggil SAHABAT. 'mereka' adalah anugerah Allah yg tak ternilai dalam Denai KehidupanKu. terima kasih Allah.

Fobia?

mesti semua org ada perkara yg mereka fobia

aku pun tak terkecuali :p

aku tersangat FOBIA bila melibatkan

kereta & jalan raya

aku FOBIA bila

nampak traffic light hijau

kalau jd org pertama

masa lampu hijau, its ok

tp jgn hijau bila nampak dr jauh

dlm hati [nak pecut ke nak slow]

tgk kereta belakang pecut smp hon kalau tak kejar

sebab?

aku pernah kejar lampu hijau

smp langgar bdk motor

[mat motor ni bwk awek lagi. haih~]

kecut perut, nak nangis, nak t'kencing

Allah saje yg tahu~

tak bgtau kat ayah

[smp ke ari ni kot~]

oh sgt takut kena marah

nasib kereta tak kemek teruk. fuhh~

bgtau kat mak sehari slps tu

syukur classmate tolong

Mr PM bebel mrh aku

kenapa cuai sgt

^_~

aku FOBIA bila

nak tukar lane

tak kira la dr kiri ke kanan

dr kanan ke kiri

sebab?

aku hampir2 langgar kereta dr lane sebelah

gara2 nak tukar lane ke kanan

bukan sekali dua

lebih 3 kali

aku dah tgk byk kali

tp..urghh~ scary!!

blind spot, yerp

jadi aku akan stay jer

tukar lane bila perlu. eheh~

aku FOBIA bila

fuel tank warning

minyak nk habis

sebab?

minyak kereta pernah smp habis

tak boleh nak start langsung

tp syukur masa tu kat rumah

kalau kat tgh hutan, tgh mlm

oh, okay aku tak dpt nk bayangkan~

nak marah ada, nak gelak pun ada

sendiri yg pakai, padan muka aku! ngee :D

jadi skrg ni, tak payah tunggu warning

tinggal 1 takuk pun, aku dah pegi tuang minyak

miahahahahaha :p

*antara 3 fobia aku kat atas ni, fobia kejar lampu hijau plg teruk skali aku rasa. duit aku melayang RM350, sebab dah terlalu takut sgt! aku bayar ajer utk repair motor. Mr PM marah aku bayar semua. eventhough lps tu, bila kaji2 semula, aku tak salah pun. mmg mat motor tu salah. tp takpe lah, aku redha~ benda dah jadi pun T_T

Congratulations

congrats eila & amal

am so sorry can't attend your E-Day

i wish i be there to take your photo

InshaAllah, i will come for your Big-Day :)

to amal,

hope you will take care of my friend

even though we only know in a short time

but she is one of my bestfriend i ever have

she is one of my 'sweet & sour'

she is my 'sahabat dunia akhirat'

may Allah S.W.T bless both of you!

i will pray for your happiness

may Allah bless your relationship till d marriage arrived :)

*happy to see my friends happy ^_______^

Thank You Cuppies + Cute Card

[blueberry flavor wit toping cheese + cute box]

is not much i think

but that all i can do by myself

hope they will like it

special baking + deco by me

a thank you cuppies

plus a small cute card

for all staff at Noris Ventures + Noris Architect

thank you for everything!!!

[cute card + mouse clip paper + cute cow]

truly sincere from me for all staff

lots of love,

UiTM practical student

-siti aishah-

Practical oh Practical

1.06.2010 - 15.10.2010

finally

done with my practical

yeay! yeay!

^__^

gonna miss all of them

miss Noris Ventures Sdn Bhd

miss Noris Architect

miss all d staff there

a lot of things i learn here

thousand of precious experiences

work together with 2 MMU marketing students

a lot of presentation to promote our service

deal with clients with thousand of attitudes

taught me how to talk in front of people
to convince, to persuade, to attract, to build d trust

practice all d theories we learn in class

we applied all d marketing activities

i do really enjoy all d moments there

and right now i'm struggle for my thesis

next week is my viva presentation

dup dap dup dap..~

after 2 & half year of my study

if everything okay

InsyaAllah, i will hold my degree!!

can't wait for that moment

pray for me & wish me luck

[for those who read this la. eheh :p]

[our marketing team, from left: erryn, puan zaharah, me & hafiz]

[with Noris Ventures bunting & booklet designed by us]

*scared for my viva. currently my thesis is only 50%. another 50% more to go. gluppp..~

Happy Friendship Day

1 August 2010
Happy Friendship Day

to all my friends out there
wish you all always be bless
by Allah S.W.T in whatever you do

I have so many friends
but I never ever forget them
because they are my precious gift by Allah

no matter how n no matter what happened
all I want you, you and you to know is
i’m so glad that I can be your friends
and you all become my friends

many friends
few best buddies
but less than 10 who I called
‘my sweet n sour’

who are far n far away
who are always next to me
who are always in my mind
who are always in my heart
who are always in my doa

yes..its you, you n you

Ya Allah,
thank you so much for your gifts

Nervous..Nervous

ouh..ouh..~
aku rasa aku
sgt takut sgt nervous

jantung ni makin dekat
makin dub-dap dub-dap plak dia
haishhhh..~

tak keruan dibuatnya
persediaan? yerp, sdg giat diusahakan
sedaya yg mungkin dgn kudrat yg ada

stress? yeah, ada la jugak
sbb nak kan yg t'baik
tapi...adeh camno ea
tinggal duo hari jer laie ha

hati, tolonglaaa...!
relaks pleasee..pleasee
wahhh, kenapa dgn aku nih?
dah macam org nak kawen ler pulak
muahahaha... :D

erk, kawen ker? jeng..jeng..~
minta dipermudahkan la segalanya
hope sabtu nih semua b'jalan dgn lancarnya

*pada pembaca Denai KehidupanKu..erk ade ker yg nak bace? eheh..tak kisah la..kalu ada sape2 yg sudi bace, mohon kamu & kamu doakan la utk diriku ini..moga segala yg dirancang & rehearsal yg sdg giat dibuat dapat ditunaikan dgn jayanya. InsyaALLAH. ameen Ya Allah.

What Else I Can Say

i know this thing would happen

when i knew we're under d same advisor

somehow it make me happy

because we can meet up again

just now i received a phone call

ask for my help to meet d advisor

honestly..i dunno what should i say

like.."ditelan mati mak diluah mati bapak"

but..somehow it too hard

to think that we will face to face

since 16 April night

this would be our 1st time

to meet eye on eye

can i make it? am i strong enough?

there is only myself to make d decision

wearing a clown costume to be a good actress

i do this just because my mum said,

"..pity and don't be a cruel person.."

then..i choose to be a hypocrite

*it seems to be a good scene this coming friday where d good actress ever in d world do her part. big clapped :D

i dunno what to say

speechless? yes..i am

two things happen in d same time

i wish i'm dreaming

but..its reality

still confuse to make decision

then..another mess?

ouh, crap..~

this afternoon,

i received an email

someone want to be friends with me in fb

[maybe to others its not a big deal..but not me]

i know her..just curios why it so suddenly

deep in my heart say, its not her but him

i know its almost 2 month i hold his request in fb

and now..both of them want to be in my friends list?

big sigh***

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enough about that

then..at night

another thing make me stunned

we got same advisor?

damn..!

Ya Allah why its happen when i really wish no

only brave on d phone

not face to face

coward huh? i'm just not strong enough

---La Tahzan Ya Aishah---

*dunno how to express my word, my face even my feeling right now. i wish i have magic & change it. seriously i'm not in the mood. melancholy :(

I Knew It

the time come

and i know it will

there is nothing can stop it

and yes...it happened

there is nothing i can do

because i knew what i have done

i have to face it

Ouh, never mind

already expect for the result

no matter how no matter what

the result can't change anymore

but i feel grateful

the result...just okay

thank you Allah

*I wish i could see a beautiful sky or sunset right now! i really need it to calm. Sigh.