Puteri Malam

andai malam ini ada bintang,

akan bintang temani tidurmu.

andai malam ini ada bulan,

akan dinyanyikan dirimu.

jikalau ada embun,

akan disejukkan jiwamu.

andai ada kesunyian,

akan ditemani cengkerik malam.

tidurlah wahai puteri malam,

semoga esok akan ceria bagimu.

*jazakallahu khairan kathira :)

Insan-Insan Kesayangan Tuhan

terkadang kita menapak di pepasir halus. terkadang kita melangkah di hamparan kerikil. terkadang kita memijak jalanan berduri. biar apa yang terpaksa kita hadapi di sepanjang perjalanan kehidupan ini. pesan pada diri, khabarkan pada hati, tetaplah terus berdiri, berjalan dan berlari, walau mungkin terpaksa kita merangkak sesakali dan jatuh berulang kali. kerna kesakitan hari ini tidak ada ertinya lagi. saat terbentangnya Syurga yang tersedia menanti, buat insan-insan yang tahan diuji demi cintanya kepada Ilahi...Assalamulaikum, semoga bahagia buatmu..insan-insan kesayangan Tuhan!

*ayat yang cukup indah! credit to Siti Norhasmaedayu bt Mohd Zamani. isteri kepada insan yang pernah aku kagumi dakwahnya di kolej dulu. mabruk ya abg razman dan isteri. moga bahagia hingga ke syurga di bawah limpahan rahmat Ilahi :)

Rindu Kamu Semua

[dari kiri: kak reen, kema, mal, laily, nana, ecah, fida]

bila belek-telek gambar ni

ada bermacam rasa dlm hati

rindu, sedih, happy, etc

my classmate masa diploma at kpmm

asalnya 13 org satu class

tp bila grad hanya 8 org

[tengku takde dlm gambar]

mana pergi berlapan lah kami

lecturer nak ajar pun senang :p

macam-macam yg kami kongsi bersama

bergaduh pun pernah

apatah lagi bermasam muka

tp tu semua yg buat kami rapat

walaupun berlapan

tp kecohnya macam 80 org

miahahahaha :D

cepatnya lah masa berlalu

empat dr kami dah kahwin

tinggal lg tiga otw lah tu

[tp aku otw pun tak laie] eheh~

tiba-tiba jumpa gambar ni

mula lah teringat balik, huhu

apa-apa pun aku nak wish yg terbaik utk semua

classmate yg pernah bersama-sama dgn aku dulu

alhamdulillah,

semua dah kerja

kecuali tengku further study

kawan, teman, sahabat

adalah hadiah yg paling berharga dlm hidup aku

aku sayang semua!!!

doa ini sentiasa iringi kamu semua

moga hidup kita semua sentiasa

dalam lindungan rahmat Ilahi

InshaAllah

*bila agaknya dapat gather dgn kamu semua. miss a lot~!!!

It's More Than Enough When...

i did not ask for a rainbow

i did not ask for d whole world

i did not ask for 200% attention

i did not ask to be comfort everytime

i did not ask for 24 hours supervision

i did not ask an ocean, a blue sky

i did not ask much~

it's more than ENOUGH when..

i know you're fine

i know you happy

i know you succeed

i know you achieve your dream

i know you have endless of blesses from Allah

i know you make your love one proud of you [your mum & family]

i know you get d best thing that you really want to

and i can see you from far away

therefore,

i am happy for you!

always pray for your happiness

because i am happy if you're happy~

*i did not ask much from you, ENOUGH if i know you're happy.

thank you for everything~!!!

kawan-kawan

malam tadi rasa terpanggil

untuk sms semua kawan-kawan

yg ada dalam hanset saya ni

"semoga Allah sentiasa rahmati kawan saya ni

untuk hari-hari yg mendatang. selamat malam, salam.."

pada kamu dan kamu

yg mungkin tak dapat

doa saya ni, jangan risau yer

walau dimana kamu semua berada

doa saya sentiasa mengiringi hari-hari anda

kerana kamu dan kamu semua pernah

hadir dalam Denai KehidupanKu

sebagai kawan, teman dan sahabat

*saya sayang semua kawan saya! doakan utk saya juga yer :)

Dear Rasyidah...

dear my beloved friend,

[you still remember those words syida? you wrote it for me 6 years ago.]

[1st pic was taken at dinner batch in 2007]

Yes, i have many friends but only a few besfriends, where i use to call them 'sahabat or teman'. i wanna share my stories one of my 'sahabat'. i met her 6 years ago during further my diploma at Kolej Profesional Mara Melaka. she is transfer student from batch senior because she want to change course so she join my batch in 2005. I'm doing my Entrepreneurship while she is in Accounting. i don't know how we can be so closed. i'm not her course-mate or even her roommate or housemate. we only met during prayer at surau, at college. yeah, we have same interest maybe. she invite me to join 'naqib naqibah'. and yeah, i joined not because of her. i just..like it. she help me a lot in accounting and economics. yeah i hate these 2 subjects! haha. we also joined JPA3 since it is compulsory to all students. so there is so much things that we shared together. thoughts about many things, ideas, brainstorm, argue sometime. hehe. she is best student in my batch. she is good in english. she is good in islamic. she is good in table tennis and many things. when i moved out from hostel, we don't have much time together. but still met at the college. yeah, time is running so fast. during in my final year 2006..i think in semester 5, there is something happen. the worst thing! i wish i could turn back for what had happen :( it is so tragic to share here. it make our relationship split. i don't know why, until today i still asked myself.."why it happen? i don't have the answer". then she transfer to KPM Beranang. since then, i lost contacts with her. but we managed to get back during our batch dinner on 2007. we not argue anymore, we just friends like before. but..not like our 1st met. hmmm..~ then, i know she further studies at Scotland in Accounting, then she get married with British man, Salahuddin Sheldon Stokes. we keep in touch through FB, chatting, and sometime she call me. after that, we just met eye on eye after 3 years. in 2010, during her walimah with Sheldon at Sungai Buloh. She gave birth Sufia Nafeesa Stokes on end of 2009 if i'm not mistaken. she still study and become a mother. so surprising me, she could managed to be a wife to a different cultural and religion husband, mother and student at the same time! she is a superwoman..!! i'm really adore and respect her because she could make one man from a different religion to become a muslim. that was so amazing! i'm so proud of you my friend...Rasyidah bt Abd Rahim :)

[during walimah syida & sheldon in 2010 at Sg Buloh. gazilion thanks to cik ain who bring & drive along d way from Melaka to Sg Buloh just to met syida, sufia & sheldon. i owe you forever ain..~]

still have many things to share here, maybe next entry. huhu. i'm so happy to see you happy syida!!! wish for your happines with your new family far away from Malaysia. hope you become a good wife, lovely ummi, true muslimah, and finish your study with a flying colors!!! i'm always pray for you my 'sahabat'. take care syida, big hug from me for sufia. she is an angel and amazing gift from Allah S.W.T. InshaAllah, amin!

forgive me for everything i had done to you, syida! i really wish that it won't happen but what is done can't be undone. its written to be happen. i want you to know that, i'm regret for what happen. maybe it our mistakes. Allah have decide what is d best for us. thank you become my 'sahabat' syida. love you, always!!!

*friends is a gift from Allah S.W.T. always appreciate our friends! say hi, pray for their happines, give a help if you can help. that is what friend for, right? :)

Petanque Melaka

it been 3 years back

we have a great time together

as a teammate

'Petanque Melaka'

its was a memorable things

ever happen in my life!!!

i play petanque since i was in form 3 in 2001

petanque is a part of my life

1st sport in my list

then badminton, futsal, etc..~

there is so much things

we shared together

training till 'rentung' :D

eat, drink, sleep,

argue, fight?

that's normal in team

i still remember

a week before we go to terengganu

we got intensive training for a week

torture, mental, physical, bla-bla..~

men & women team split

we fight, even in women team also

coach don't even know

but

we managed to seat all together

without our coach knowledge

and confess 'hati ke hati'

everyone speak out

we forgive, cried & hug

feels more stronger after that

same as men's team

i still remember

we're d ONLY team

wake-up early in d morning

straight away after subuh

jogging, warm-up, exercise and

we sing Melaka & Negaraku song

with our captain hold d flag

[seriously, i miss that moment damn much!!!]

every time after d game

we will seat together with our coach

we do a post-mortem

for what we have done

we also confess with coach

even men's team cried

very honestly from all of us

maybe that was d secret

we be a CHAMPION!!

1 gold for women's team

1 silver for men's triple

2 bronze for men's team & men's double

[supposed we can won 2 gold for women..not our luck~]

i miss all of them!!!

i miss to play again with my teammate

i miss to training with my boules

just don't have much time now

too busy with works, life

ahh...too much excuses, haih~

what ever happen

'Petanque Melaka'

will always in my heart...FOREVER!!

i got my best present on 18 June 2008, my 22nd birthday

a gold medal & further for my degree :)

women's team: kak faeza, zatul, sera, ain, ecah yatim, azirah & me

men's team: amir, pejal, zaidi, hamdan, syauqi, azri, faiz

coach: ustz halim, cikgu osman, cikgu hasnas, en hamdan, en halim

*best wishes to all my ex-teammate for coming tournament this June & also SUKMA 2012. Petanque Melaka Boleh!!!

Nostalgia by Shoutul Amal

Terkenang sebuah memori lalu
Kisah persahabatan kita bersama
Di dalam satu pengajian
Menuntut ilmu dan pengalaman
Mengingatkanku pengorbananmu
Terpahat padu di kalbuku

Bersama rakan taulan dan guru
Tawa riangmu menghiburkan hatiku
Indahnya suasana ketika itu
Terjalin ukhuwah sejati

Nasihatmu sungguh bermakna bagiku
Mengenalkanku erti kehidupan
Susah payah kita hadapi bersama
Itulah asam garam dalam kehidupan

Ya Tuhanku tabahkan hatinya
Kuatkan semangatnya untuk menghadapi hidup
Limpahkanlah maghfirah dan kasih sayang-Mu
Agar hidupnya sejahtera di dunia akhirat

*khas buat 'mereka' yg aku panggil SAHABAT. 'mereka' adalah anugerah Allah yg tak ternilai dalam Denai KehidupanKu. terima kasih Allah.

Happy New Year 2011

2010 full with stories & surprise

happy + sad + broken heart + new experiences

new friends + vacation + finish my study

true friendship + grown up as a big girl

so many to list down here, eheh :p

2011...another year begins

another story & chapter will take part

another memory will be create

another surprise will happen, perhaps ♥

miahahaha..~

oh, i just wanna wish that

'another' will continuously happen in my life

with endless of blesses from Allah S.W.T.

*still not achieve my 1st dream! i don't have an idea when i will achieve it. sigh~

Suka Sangat

[ rumah ni kwn yg lukis. farihan namanya! cantik kan? ♥ suka ♥ ]

aku suka sangat

melukis tp aku tak boleh

sebab kalau aku lukis

org nanti jadi org lidi

rumah jadi kekotak

rerumput jadi tali2 putus

aduh..duh..duh..~

oh, kesimpulannya

aku tak seni

terimalah kenyataan ya!

^____^

My Love GBM

they are my unique friends i ever have

we have been friends for almost three years

since fasting month 2007 until now

why i call unique?

because we meet in 'alam maya'

and we named as 'Geng Budak Munyit'

there is a lot of things that we shared

we create stories together

we laugh, we cried, we argued, we craziest

and many-many more :D

this video special created by zaza

thank you so much for d video nyettt :p

*miss all moments we have been through. love all of you nyettt..~

Adilkah?

bila kita dah jumpa org yg kita sayang

janganlah cari yg lebih baik

benarkah...?

realiti hidup ni

tak pernah yg adil

dah ada org yg kita sayang

dan org yg kita sayang pun sayang sgt pd kita

kita masih mencari yg lain

mencari lain yg lebih baik?

atau sekadar menghiburkan hati yg sepi?

atau sekadar peneman di kala sunyi?

atau sekadar mempermainkan hati & perasaan?

tp semua tu disangkal dgn cukup bijak

'mereka' yg bijak hidup bahagia dgn yg t'sayang

org lain yg dicari t'kesima dgn 'kebenaran'

lumpuh seketika dgn t'sirat di sebalik yg t'surat

ibarat 'habis madu sepah dibuang'

masa depannya hampir dibiarkan shja

syukur 'masa depan' itu masih b'nafas

walaupun hanya 'lepas paras hidung'

adilkah?

kadang-kala mereka yg dipanggil lelaki

rasa apa yg mereka buat tak salah

pd mereka tak sakit, tak pedih

pd mereka tak sengsara

ya...sebab kami yg dipanggil wanita

hanya mampu menangis & menahan sakit

jauh dalam lubuk hati

adilkah Ya Allah?

:(

*aku tanya pd diri, kenapa mesti aku? berulang-kali, kenapa & kenapa? hmm..~

Happy Friendship Day

1 August 2010
Happy Friendship Day

to all my friends out there
wish you all always be bless
by Allah S.W.T in whatever you do

I have so many friends
but I never ever forget them
because they are my precious gift by Allah

no matter how n no matter what happened
all I want you, you and you to know is
i’m so glad that I can be your friends
and you all become my friends

many friends
few best buddies
but less than 10 who I called
‘my sweet n sour’

who are far n far away
who are always next to me
who are always in my mind
who are always in my heart
who are always in my doa

yes..its you, you n you

Ya Allah,
thank you so much for your gifts

GBM Geng's

Salam Denai KehidupanKu,

GBM..? apakah ia? persatuankah? atau sejenis makanankah? ouh, tidak2..semuanya salah! GBM is stand for 'Geng Budak Munyit'. a very unique name rite? eheh. yerp, unik & cute spt ahli2nye jgk kiutt miutt. hagagaga..~

btw, tiba2 rasa nak story bout GBM ni kat Denai KehidupanKu. bcoz its a part of my life too. i mean each one of GBM Geng's was used to be my friends forever, InsyaAllah. mcm mana boleh t'tubuhnya GBM nih? hurm, putar balik masa. okeh, aku ingat lagi masa tu bulan puasa tahun 2007. aku baru jer grad diploma n mmg 24jam depan pc sbb dah merdeka. eheh. so, setiap malam aku lepak kat chatbox sorang artis nih. kira masa tuh artis ni tgh femes meletop2 dlm crita manjalara. n aku mcm t'minat pulak sbb handsome. wakakaka. okeh, artis yg dimaksudkan 'erry putra'.

kat dlm chatbox tuh, segalanya bermula. aku mula kenal dgn zaza,then aman, paez, sapnar, syana, sepot, bum, wayie, kaboom & tuan empunya chatbox erry. ade ramai lg dlm box tuh tp aku hnya rapat dgn mereka2. setiap mlm ktorg akan menggila, merepek, meraban smp la ke waktu sahur. tp dlm merapu byk jgk benda yg ktorg share. dr situ ktorg mula jadi kawan & akhirmya jadi geng. erry pun bg pangkat kat ktorg dlm chatbox dia yg mana ramai lg big fans dia nak sgt pangkat yg ktorg dpt tuh. ahahah. kelakar jerk, dgn kuasa yg erry bagi ktorg boleh ban n kicked sape2 yg tak sopan dlm dlm chatbox. kadang2 erry join sekaki. very cool artis n erry pun sama menggila mcm ktorg. okeh, enough bout that.

lepas dr tuh, ktorg mula getting serius dgn ikatan persahabatan yg t'jalin. share sgala suka, duka, geram, lawak jenaka, idea n macam2 lagi. asal nama geng ni 'Geng Budak Mungik' tapi tak tau mcm mana boleh jd 'Geng Budak Munyit'. eheh. tp sgt sesuai namanye, i like :D d way GBM wujud sgt unik. hampir setahun lebih ktorg kenal hnya di alam maya. tak pernah jumpa antara satu sama lain. kalu ade pun through phone dgr suara. tp cara ktorg borak mcm dah closed giler. akhirnya jumpa jgk for d 1st time on 1st March 2009 kat MITC, Jom Heboh Melaka.

[from left: me, paez, zaza, sepot, aman]

byk sejarah suka duka GBM Geng's. byk dah yg ktorg harung n kongsi. boleh buat satu folder khas utk GBM jer dlm pc nih. nak buat sketsa or drama pun boleh kot. haha. pasang surut pun ade tp kami tetap teguh b'sama. Alhamdulillah, terima kasih Ya Allah utk ikatan hubungan yg Engkau kurniakan. ia cukup b'makna buat kami semua. then 2nd gath pun kat melaka jgk coz masa ni ktorg nk lawat our youngest geng in GBM, sepot yg sakit buah pinggang. masa ni dah bulan puasa tahun 2009.

[kami kat rumah sepot @ klebang]

then, our 3rd gath on 060909. ni gath yg paling besar dlm sejarah GBM. yg hadir zaza, aman, paez, syana, bum, wayie, sepot n me-angah. yg takde cume sapnar, erry n kaboom. that day, ktorg sgt2 enjoy n happy bcoz akhirnya dpt jgk b'kumpul secara realiti not in alam maya. bulan2 puasa pun still larat jgk menggila kat pantai puteri, makam hang tuah, tesco, melaka sentral, bazar ramadhan kat klebang n ktorg bukak puasa kat umah sepot. sweet memory this time. i'm really2 miss all d moments. huhu.

[our 3rd gathering]

[choc cake special by me but rasanya kureng this time. dunno why, so sori guys]

ade jgk antara ktorg yg jmpa tapi aku takde sekali di tmpt kejadian. hehe. just a mini gath. tp yg selalu aku jmp si sepot sbb umah dia 10 minit jer dr umah aku der. ngee :D selalu lepak minum2, tgk wayang, main bowling n photoshoot dgn sepot. al-maklum la dekat jer, yg lain2 jauh. but we try to plan for our next gathering n really hope that all GBM Geng's dpt join. harapan aku yg plg besar nih! hope we can do it by d end of this year, InsyaAllah.

so, before aku end story bout GBM ni, aku nak share sikit latest update ahli2 GBM yg ade:

angah (myself) - still study, degree at UiTM

zaza - further master at UKM

aman - still study, degree at KYM-UUM

paez- still study, degree at MMU

sapnar- teacher at JB

syanap - family business at Alor Star

bum - working at JB

wayie - still study, degree at UiTM

sepot - still study, form 4 at MGS

kaboom - working at KL

*last but not least erry putra - busy actor & singer

[edit by paez. if i'm not mistaken]

*apa pun yg berlaku, tak kiralah skrg or akan datang. yg aku tahu korang semua pernah hadir dlm hidup aku, pernah jadi sebahagian dlm episod kehidupan aku. segala memori suka, duka, susah, senang, b'telagah & kasih sayang akan sentiasa t'simpan dlm kotak memori aku. sebab bg aku..kawan, teman, sahabat adalah anugerah Allah yg sgt bernilai dan korang semua adalah harta aku yg bernilai. moga Allah restu hubungan yg t'jalin ni utk selamanya. InsyaAllah. Amin :)

Permulaan & Pengakhiran

Alhamdulillah

mendapat khabar yg melapangkan dada ini

rasa terlalu happy sesangat la

[sambil lompat-lompat kijang]

ahahaha..~

hati ini terasa sungguh lega

mengapakah? bagaimanakah?

ouh, kelu lidah utk nyatakannya

tak perlu lagi untuk jadi 'si badut'

tak perlu lagi utk bersandiwara

tak perlu lagi utk berlakon

tak perlu lagi hipokrit

lalalalalala..~

tp masih terselit rasa sedih

tak tahu kenapa

mungkin ini permulaan yg baik

utk mengakhirkan segala yg dimulakan

tapi ia memerlukan kekuatan

kerana ia pasti sakit

tapi ia perlu utk diri ini

secara fizikal aku akhirinya

tapi secara zahirnya

persahabatan ini sentiasa di hatiku

dengan izin dariNya

InsyaALLAH

*usaha ini pasti terlalu sakit sebab aku pilih utk memutuskan persahabatan. tapi ia perlu sebab aku kalah dgn diri sendiri. aku hanya inginkan kebahagiaan utk semua org yg aku sayang. jadi hilang seorang sahabat demi kebahagiaannya, rasanya aku tak b'dosa utk silaturrahim yg t'putus ini. maafkan diriku Ya Allah!

My Friday Fairy Tale

can i call it a 'fairy-tale story'..?

yeah, i think it suit

hahaha..~

this is not what i want

yes, i wish we can be a friend again

and i know this is your wish too

but i want it happen naturally

let d time decide..when, where and how

its you saying this,

"..i know its not easy, not a month, two or three months but..,

it took a year, two years or maybe more.."

but..what happened today?

maybe its too easy for you

or maybe you already forget what happened

it too drastic for me

yeah, i know and you know

both of us can be a good actor/actress

so, what you see today

is not me..i'm such a good actress right?

laughing, joking, crazy as usual, talking too much

we meet like before this

like nothing happened

yes, a very good drama-queen

as soon as we apart

my tears drop without ask for it

for a few hours back..i'm strong

such a good hypocrite

all the memories play in my mind

its seems happened yesterday

i miss d good all days

this will end soon..after finish d practical

it will be the end of my drama

too tired to be a clown all d time

just to make everyone happy but me?

*this evening i eat roti john plus teh o ais limau and watch d sunset ALONE. all this place have its own story and memories :(