nye...aku sayang kau. sangat~!!!

[somewhere in NZ. Lol :p]

nye,

terima kasih sebab ambil berat & jadi pendengar setia

[bila tension kat opis, bebel-bebel kat kau] :p

terima kasih sebab amat risau

[masa kau kat upsi last week, asyik call risau aku tido sorang kat umah]

terima kasih sebab teman sampai lewat malam

[teman siapkan tender, teman buat kek] :)

bila kau buat macam ni

buat aku teringat sangat kat mak :(

ya, aku terharu. sangat~

terima kasih nye,

apa pun yg jadi

kau TETAP akak aku

yg paling aku sayang

hingga akhir hayat aku~!!!

[us with Mt. Kinabalu at Mesilou, Kundasang]

*dan untuk bertaut dari dua jadi tiga, doa ini tidak pernah putus.

air mata ini sentiasa mengalir untuk itu, InshAllah~

Salam Baitullah 1432 Hijrah

Ya Allah,

permudahkanlah segala urusan hambaMu

dalam menuju ke Tanah Suci.

begitu juga buat kedua ibu bapaku

tabahkan hati mereka Ya Allah,

kuatkan semangat mereka

dalam menempuhi segala mujahadahMu.

pandanglah ibu bapaku dengan pandangan rahmatMu

kabulkanlah setiap baris doa mereka

hadiahkan mereka haji yang Mabrur Ya Allah.

dan Engkau pulangkanlah mereka

ke sisiku sedikit masa lagi

kerana mereka berdua adalah insan

yang paling berharga lebih dari nyawaku.

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gambar yg paling berharga. alhamdulillah.

aku sayang mereka berdua. sangat~!!!

terima kasih semua yg sudi hantar :)

*hari ni mak ayah baru sampai Mekah selepas 9 hari di Madinah.

risau? sentiasa. permudahkan segalanya Ya Allah!!!

two days lefts...

reminiscing back

when my grandmother lefts

went to d same place

6 years ago

and she not coming back after that

lay down far away from Malaysia

T_T

and all of this

make me scared like hell

i asked this question

to my mom, again & over again

mak, will you promised me that

you WILL coming back?

i just can't imagine

what had happen before

can happen again

because i miss my grandmother

always and always

soooo much!!!!!!! sigh~

O Allah,

please protect my precious

i do love both of them

i can't live without one of them

O Allah,

give d strength to both of them

ease all d way for them

and i pray that they

will have Haji Mabrur,

*i am too too scared what will happen. trying hard to put away this feeling :(

Raya at Melaka Side

still in raya mood aite :p

so, wanna share raya photos

with my big big family [not so big la]

this year, all family members

gather at my house, Bukit Rambai, Melaka

because my mak is d eldest in family

oh btw, wanna wish too

Happy Merdeka Day 54th

double celebration for all Malaysian citizen

:) :) :)

ok, don't feel to bebel-bebel

so lets picture do d talking

:D

second generation.

only a part of us. with seven family that day.

us with three generation :)

biras & beras :p

*1st time in my life, bagi duit raya this year. alhamdulillah utk rezeki yg ada :)

Alhamdulillah

terima kasih Ya Allah

kerana kembalikan sesuatu

yang amat aku inginkan

sejak beberapa bulan yg lalu

alhamdulillah,

aku syukur sangat dgn hadiah

yang Engkau berikan pada aku

mungkin ia hadiah terbaik

utk hari jadi aku tahun ni

terima kasih sekali lagi

sesungguhnya

aku teramat-amat

sayangkan dia rindukan dia!

kerana sampai ke hujung nyawa ini

aku amat perlukan dia dalam

meniti Denai KehidupanKu

moga ia kekal utk selamanya..~

*masih lagi tergantung. impianku yg pertama, bila agaknya?

mungkin suatu hari nanti, InshaAllah.

A Gift

yesterday

i think its a gift

for me

even its only

talking on d phone

BUT

its really big present

from The All Mighty

Allah S.W.T

Ya Allah,

i really hope it will be end soon!

because i'm too tired

most of important is

i miss you like crazy nye!!!

and i love you so much!!!

how i wish you know this

how i wish you read this

how i wish you also have

a same thought like me

too many wishes & pray from me

for us!!!

thank you Allah

for d gift

endless of thankful & grateful

amin!

*have a safe journey there my love nye!!!

The Day

on 15 May 2011

i'm officially

graduate from UiTM

BBA (Hons) Marketing

never ever thought

i will further my study

until to d university

because i'm not good at school

compare to my bro & sis

last minute decision i made

gazillion thanks to whom

encourage & force me

to go for d convocation

alhamdulillah

i been there

walk down to d stage

hold my scroll

just for my

mak & ayah

after finish d ceremony

straight away call ayah

too crowded there

then i saw both of them

waiting for me

ayah hug & kiss me

until i saw his eye with tears

then, mak also cried

Ya Allah,

thank you for give me that moment!!

i got a bouquet

of white roses

my favorite :)

thanks mak!!!

and thanks to my love sis

wish me on my big day

thanks nye,

i do really appreciate it..~!!!

also thanks to pakndak's family

give d best hospitality

send us until at d UiTM

then pick us

thanks again!

last but not least

grateful & thankful

to The All Mighty

Allah S.W.T

who give me

a chance & d opportunity

to feels all d great moments

after 2 and half years

of my study

*congratulations to all UiTM students for d 74th Convocation Ceremony.

Fahmi Makin Notty

cepatnya masa berlalu~

fahmi makin besau :D

nak berlari aje dia

jalan pelan-pelan ni tak main dah!

ngahahahahaha..~

dah mula b'cakap

mamaaa, aaayah, aaatok

nenek tak pandai lagi

busu dia panggil kaaakak

hahaha...terasa diri ni muda kejap :p

tapi banyaknya yg dicakap

bahasa dia sorang je paham

mulut kalau boleh tak nak stop bebel

kalau duduk umah aku ni mau jd mak nenek~

hagagagagaga :D

kalau bagi mainan

mesti nak mengetuk jer keje dia

lepas tu baling sana-sini..~

kejap jer mainan aku beli pehtu berderai seribu!!

haihhhh, busu taknak beli kan lg tau :p

haaa, paling suka dgn aaatok dia ^_~

duduk atas riba aaatok dia

pehtu ikut aaatok dia pi kedai

pehtu ngendeng jajan, air kotak

pandai yer fahmi, hahaha~

pemalu orangnya nih!!!

sikit-sikit nak tutup muka

bila tengok iklan tv kusyuk betol

abis iklan, sambung main

hahaha..~

nak upload video fahmi

tgh main dgn nenek dia

tp usb cable aku ni

tak boleh nak detect plak

haihh...~

so, gambar jer yg ada

tu pun tak banyak

sume dalam phone

adesss..~

[play around with mak ngah's elephant..~]

*bila agaknya yer? mungkin satu hari nanti...InshaAllah!

I'm Strong Girl

i made d decision

i'm going to d convocation

i just do it because of

my parents

mak really want to

see me hold d scroll

at d stage

:(

i'm doing this

just...to make

mak & ayah

smile & happy..~

even though it will

hurt me badly

i will get d strength

by wearing a costume

yerp, d clown

d actress will do d best

to make sure everyone happy

*seem like d clown have to action back just like before :)

Should or Shouldn't?

should i apply job

outside from my hometown?

because there are lots of vacancy

outside from melaka

seriously

i want to

to gain experience, knowledge

to explore, to learn new things,

new environments,

learn how to survive

but

i just...can't~

at this moment

prefer to be here..

am i too pampered?

can't live with my own?

more specific...

can't live without my parents? can't survive?

i just...

don't want to miss anything in d future

small salary,

not suit with my qualification

lack with this and that

bla-bla-bla..~

but

i'm grateful

for what i have now

yes, i should find another job

that suit with my qualification

just pray for me!

*my friend told me, give d best to your beloved one before they gone forever! she regret because she can't do much for her late mother because of work too far. she is crying when spoke to me. she keep on remind me, appreciate what i have now. do not too ambitious to get what you want! hmmm..so in my situation now, i know which one is d best. i will not put d responsibility to my other siblings as long as i can do, i will do it! InshaAllah :)

Happy Birthday Ayah

i know

i'm d one who always

not listen to you

i know

i'm always arguing

this and that with you

i know

i'm always lost

my temper with you

i know

we don't have much time together

like mak & me

i know

we not share everything

like mak & me

i know

we not so closed

like mak & me

but

all things listed up there

bring more love

between you and me

there is so much things

i want you to know, ayah

but

it can't be win

with this two words

that i really want you to know

'thank you'

for everything

ayah,

no matter how

no matter what

without you

i will not type

all of this words for you, today

you're one of my wings

you're my left

and mak is my right

i love you,

always

happy 60th birthday, ayah!

may Allah bless you~

ameen

much love,

siti

I Miss You

i miss you damn-damn much!!!

but i dunno

how,where, when to start

sometime too tired

to keep everything fine

okay then not okay

over and over again

we are getting older

day by day

not younger

day by day

so, until when

all of 'this' will be end?

ego?

i know, i'm an egoist

but deep in my heart

wish i can talk, laugh

just like before

don't you feel what i feel?

nye, i miss you so much~

n i love you so much too!!

:(

*Ya Allah, can you give HER back to me?

i'm so jealous to see d others can talk, laugh, share this & that, bla-bla while i can't. sigh~

Pray & Hope

money?

we can find it,

we can work for it

but

to be 'Tetamu Allah'

even we have million of money

we can't guaranteed

to be there~

went to LTH today

take out all my ASB

plus with others saving

after 3 months of working

alhamdulillah

just enough

:)

but,

d officer said

we can't confirmed

that i could follow my parent or not

:(

so,

even d money is ready

no guaranteed we could perform our Hajj

what i can do is

keep on pray to The All Mighty

to put my name

as His guess this year!

*i miss to see Kaaba!!! last time i been there it was 10 years ago for Umrah. Kaaba is d most beautiful place that i ever seen! speechless to see it for d 1st time! peaceful~ calm~ feel so tiny~ sad~ happy~ oh, no words to describe it! for d youngest out there, register your name at LTH from now! use your money to d right place. some people said...'oh, just wait till my age 60 years old then i will think of it'. hmm, if we have money don't wait. we never know about d future~

I Wish I Could

i wish i have d opportunity

to feel the beauty of being

ummi, ibu, mak, mama, mummy, momma, mom..~

to feel d beauty of life as a women!

to feel what my mak been through

to know how strong d patience needed

to know how mak manage everything

for her kids, husband, family

to feel how big sacrifice needed

oh, i just don't know

my feelings if i become a mother

if Allah give me the opportunity

i wish my mak still exist in this world

so i can share with her

i just don't know

how to thank to mak for everything!

Thank You Allah

for sending Zainab Bakar

as my mother in this world

♥♥♥

*amin Ya Allah. for everything You lend for me in this world :)

Happy New Year 2011

2010 full with stories & surprise

happy + sad + broken heart + new experiences

new friends + vacation + finish my study

true friendship + grown up as a big girl

so many to list down here, eheh :p

2011...another year begins

another story & chapter will take part

another memory will be create

another surprise will happen, perhaps ♥

miahahaha..~

oh, i just wanna wish that

'another' will continuously happen in my life

with endless of blesses from Allah S.W.T.

*still not achieve my 1st dream! i don't have an idea when i will achieve it. sigh~

Its A Long Journey

will be away for 2 weeks

to release everything

to gain something

may Allah S.W.T bless our journey

InshaAllah ^_______^

the crew of journey will be

me, my sister & my sis's friend, kak kuzi

only three of us

all girls & single :p

so, where are we going?

jeng..jeng..jeng

just wait for d story & photos

after i came back

*see you when i see you my 'Denai KehidupanKu' :)

Being Thankful

pity mak for what had happen

but i know this happen for some reason

relief because the robbers do not do any harm

but, yeah! mak still trauma & scared like hell

three words from me,

Thank You Allah

endless of grateful & thankful

for saving my love mak!

to the robbers if not here,

i'm sure in the hereafter you will get the punishment!!!

*nowadays, world is getting cruel. its a sign 'end of world' isn't? hmm...~