Ahlan Wa Sahlan Ya Ramadhan

alhamdulillah

Ramadhan datang lagi

bulan yg penuh keberkatan

yg ditunggu-tunggu

4 hari lg umat islam mula berpuasa

Ya Allah, ku pohon padaMu

panjangkan umurku, sihatkan tubuh badanku

supaya aku dapat menyambut bulan yg mulia ini

kepada semua kawan, teman dan sahabat ku

maafkan segala khilaf diri ini

moga kita semua mendapat cinta yg hakiki dari Allah

di bulan yg penuh dgn barakah ini

InshaAllah

*Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan 1432 Hijrah kepada semua umat islam serta yg sudi membaca Denai KehidupanKu :)

It All Ends Here

finally,

yg ditunggu-tunggu muncul akhirnya

oleh kerana ke-fanatikan pd HP

saya pergi tgk sampai 2x yer!

[nasib tak 3x, opss :D]

miahahahahaha..~

puas hati? agak puas jugaklah!

even though tak sama mcm dlm buku

but, much better than HP and the half blood prince

cuma ada certain part yg agak lembap

but still best utk tgk smp 2x, tehee..~

suka sgt membazir sy ni kan, haih!

nak buat camane kan :p

thumbs up to all actor and actress

also to d director who try d best for d conclusion

to Daniel Radicliffe, you do a good job my hero ^_~

to Emma Watson, you're so beautiful girl :)

to Rupert Grint, always laugh with your acting man!

ouh, gonna miss to watch Harry Potter in cinema after this

miss to watch hogwarts school, d charm, bla-bla

haih, cik ecah enough okeh!

just for entertainment yer :D

overall, it ends with flying colors

hehehehe..~

*kalaulah ada tongkat sakti, mesti syokkk kan. haha, ampun! abaikan ke-fanatikan sy ini. huru-hara dunia kalau semua org ada tongkat sakti. :)

no more...

priority

excitement

discovering

curiosity

no more!!!

*the power to choose..it's beyond of my hand. i miss the good old days :(

Impian Teragung

ianya impian paling agung

yg masih tergantung dlm hidup ini

ianya impian yg paling sukar utk aku capai

impian teragung aku bukanlah percintaan

bukan juga cita-cita

tapi impian teragung aku adalah

sebuah harapan utk tujuh keping hati :(

hari-hari yg mendatang semakin pantas

kadang aku rasa terlalu takut

dapat ke aku lunaskan

impian teragung ini

sebelum segalanya terlewat

tapi apa kuasa aku?

apa daya aku?

apa kekuatan yg aku ada?

aku tak punya apa-apa

yg aku ada hanya titipan doa

yg tiada penghujungya

yg aku ada hanya harapan

yg tidak pernah padam walau sesaat

setiap masa

soalan yg menghantui diri ini

bila waktunya Ya Allah?

*adakah ianya kesudahan yg diakhiri dgn tangis kebahagiaan?

atau berakhir dgn tangis kekesalan? hmmm..~

Tiada Duka Yang Abadi by Opick

Tiada duka yang abadi di dunia

Tiada sepi merantaimu selamanya

Malam kan berakhir, hari kan berganti

Takdir hidup kan dijalani

Tangis dan tawa nyanyian yang mengiring

Hati yang rindukan cinta di jalan-Mu

Namun ku percaya hati meyakini

Semua akan indah pada akhirnya

Andai bisa ku mengulang

Waktu hilang dan terbuang

Andai bisa perbaiki segala yang terjadi

Tapi waktu tak berhenti

Tapi detik tak kembali

Harap ampunkan hamba-Mu ini

Waktu berputar rebulan dan matahari

Bunga yang mekar akan layu akan mati

Malam kan berakhir, hari kan berganti

Takdir hidup kan dijalani

Andai bisa ku mengulang

Waktu hilang dan terbuang

Andai bisa perbaiki segala yang terjadi

Tapi waktu tak berhenti

Tapi detik tak kembali

Harap ampunkan hamba-Mu ini

Andai bisa ku mengulang

Waktu hilang dan terbuang

Andai bisa perbaiki segala yang terjadi

Tapi waktu tak berhenti

Tapi detik tak kembali

Harap ampunkan hamba-Mu ini

Harap ampunkan hamba-Mu ini

*Ya Allah, Engkau rahmatilah & berkatilah perjalanan hidupku ini. tenangkan hatiku mengahadapi segala ujian dariMu Ya Allah!!

Apa Nak Jadi Berita Hari Ini???

serius aku TERSANGAT menyampah

untuk tengok berita-berita

yg ada kat television sekarang nih

tv3 yg swasta apatah lagi tv1 milik kerajaan

kenapa mesti setiap hari berita yg sama???

kalau sejam berita, setengah jam berita dok kisar benda yg sama!!!

aku betul tak paham~!!!

kalau aku sebagai rakyat,

setiap hari disuap dgn benda yg sama

aku akan mula cari alternatif lain

untuk dapatkan sumber maklumat

kerajaan tak pernah fikir ke,

atau orang cerdik pandai dalam kabinet

dah tak boleh nak fikir langsung???

cubalah fikir dgn MATA HATI wahai menteri-menteri

dan yg paling atas tu Perdana Menteri, pak najib oiii~

aku tahu semua saluran,

baik media elektronik mahupun media cetak

semua di kawal oleh kerajaan

sebab itu, mereka-mereka lantang bersuara

tp bila setiap hari benda yg sama

rakyat rasa MELUAT, MENYAMPAH~!!!!

dari takde perasaan benci pada kerajaan

sampai rasa TERAMAT benci

pada aku tak perlu terlalu

beria-ia sangatlah nak war-war dlm tv

rakyat dari takde rasa benci

mula rasa benci, tak ke bodoh namanya~!!!

agaknya 'mereka' ingat

dgn sumbat berita-berita yg sama setiap hari

boleh tanam perasaan benci pd pembangkang

100% SALAH tindakan & perancangan kerajaan tuh!

patutnya, bersederhana sahaja

biar rakyat fikir & buat keputusan sendiri

masa pilihanraya, itu sebetulnya kan???

banyak lagi berita lain dlm Malaysia

pasal kebajikan, kesihatan, pelajaran,

dokumentari, kajian, jenayah, agama, bla-bla..~

mmg berita-berita ni ada, tp sgt kurang!!!

kesimpulannya, waktu berita

aku akan online tak pun baca buku

bila tanya pd kawan-kawan,

majoriti kata benda yg sama

"dulu aku takde lah tak suka BN ke UMNO,

tp bila setiap hari tgk & dgr benda yg sama,

aku jadi MENYAMPAH, MELUAT"

*bodohkan namanya tuh? tolonglah, kerajaan fikir cara lain utk menang hati rakyat~!!! [kena ban ke kalau aku luahkan rasa macam nih? huhu]

:(

tak tahu kenapa

dengan diri aku

minggu lepas & minggu ni

air mata mudah sangat tumpah

mudah sangat terasa hati

[bulan tak mengambang pun. aku waras]

aku mula pergi ke pantai

habis saja waktu kerja

aku mesti singgah pantai kalau sempat

Ya Allah

aku tahu sifat buruk aku

terlalu memikir yg negatif

boleh jadi barah dlm diri ni

tapi salah ke kalau aku fikir?

sebelum sesuatu terjadi

lebih baik aku fikir ke arah tu

aku bukan kawan yg penyabar

aku kawan yg selalu gelabah

aku kawan yg selalu bertindak terburu-buru

aku kawan yg suka cakap ikut perasaan

aku kawan yg tak hormat keadaan org lain

aku kawan yg suka memaksa

segala yg tak elok ada pada diri ni

aku sedar aku bukanlah kawan yg baik

aku...rindu? ya!

aku mengaku aku rindu

aku bukan budak kecil

perlu diberitahu setiap saat

cuma dalam 3-4 hari sekali

sekurang-kurangnya bagi la tahu

terlalu sibuk, terlampau byk kerja

takda la aku fikir yg bukan-bukan

tapi aku dapat tahu dr mulut org lain

itu pun secara tak langsung, bukan aku tanya

aku...marah? ya!

tapi aku soal balik diri ni

apa hak aku nak marah?

siapa aku nak marah?

aku takda hak, aku bukan siapa-siapa

jadi, aku diamkan diri

marah pada diri sendiri

:( :(

*besok ada exam. aku cuba utk study. tp tak boleh, jiwa aku kacau sgt~!!!

Si Itoi :)

saya ade kawan baru

kenalkan, nama dia itoi

dia la peneman saya kat office

sebab saya selalu keseorangan

kesiankan saya...eheh

bila bosan, cakap-cakap dgn itoi

bila bengang dgn bos, luah kat itoi

suka kacau itoi guna cermin

ikan laga ni kalau nampak spesis dia

mula la nak kembang ekor

kononya macam ayam nk bersabung gitu :p

kelakar jer tengok, kadang tu boleh leka

miahahahahahaha...~

*kringggggg..ops, telefon bunyi. got to go now, daaa..~

KL Gangster vs Transformers vs Harry Potter

[eager to watch this movie bcoz of aaron aziz aka seth tan. eheh :p]

last week on 3rd July

manage to watch

KL Gangster

i give 10 star

to Skop Production

director by Syamsul Yusof

its a good movie

with d action, chasing on d public area at town

fighting scene's, car crash

d story line, touching part, funny part

look soooo real & aliveeeeee..~

yeah, i know its a bit violent, harsh

but we talk about gangster right?

so thumbs up to all actor, actress & crew

congratulation again to Syamsul Yusof

for not disappointed me to watch malay movie

for those who still not watch it, you better do

its not bcoz of d actor only but d movie is GOOD~!!

*thanks to my friends, cik ain izie who accompany me :)

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[oh, i wish have one car like bumblebee. yellow, cool haa! tehee :D]

and this week on saturday, after work

manage to watch Transformers, alone :|

after 2 & half hours

my ear like 'dengung'..? haha~

seriously, d sound effect

like drag me into d movie :p

so, d Decepticons lead by Megatron

who want to make come-back

Megatron & Sentinel Prime conspiracy

to bring d Cybertron to earth

d Autobots as d guardian for earth

fight together with human to safe d world

thumbs up to Michael Bay as d director

and all crew involved

who make a good movie!!!

*after a long time tak bawak motor, me decide to rempit.

since my sis borrow my car. cilok-mencilok, hoyeahh :)

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[HP going to end, finally~ uhh, so sad]

can't wait for this movie!!!

watch d trailer again & again

promo on televisyen

oh, cepatlah minggu depan :)

finally, almost 10 years

to complete all episodes

i follow every movies

read all d books

buy d original CD, sanggup tu~ :p

gonna miss to watch HP kat wayang lepas ni

haihhhhhh, fanatik sungguh saya, haha!

just for entertainment kan

this coming thursday

pakat ramai-ramai serbu panggung

to watch my hero, Harry Potter :p

miahahahahaha...~

[sila abaikan ke-fanatikan sy ini yer]

*ouh, tp saya nyer buleh tgk on sunday ajer, coz saturday got PTD exam. hehe~

Pegawai Tadbir Diplomatik

Menjadi seorang Pegawai Tadbir dan Diplomatik (PTD) bukan lah sesuatu yang mudah. Sebab itu ianya dianggap sebagai satu kerjaya yang eksklusif dan berada pada kelas yang tersendiri. Proses pemilihanya kalu dinilai merupakan satu proses yang agak ketat dan sedikit sukar. Dalam proses penapisan sahaja, seseorang yang mahu menjadi pegawai PTD harus melalui 3 peringkat ujian yang bekal menguji kemahiran dan ilmu yang ada.

Pada peringkat umumnya, kelulusan anda dinilai sama ada anda layak atau tidak untuk memohon menjadi Pegawai Tadbir Diplomatik. Bagi yang tidak dipanggil untuk peperiksaan PTD, mungkin ada masalah dengan kelulusan anda. Setelah layak untuk menduduki ujian, anda perlu bersedia dengan maklumat yang secukupnya kerana ujian PTD menuntut pemahaman dan kesedaran tentang maklumat penting. Dalam kata lain, anda perlu peka dengan isu semasa dan banyak membaca itulah persediaan utuh untuk menjawat jawatan Pegawai Tadbir Diplomatik.

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itu yg aku baca dr lama-laman blog kat internet
macam-macam lagi explanation utk PTD nih
kadang tu bila baca, rasa macam susah yg amat jer!
haihhhhh...~

ok, kenape tiba-tiba aku nak
highlight pasal PTD pulak ni
hmmm, kemarin aku dapat surat
utk hadir exam PTD on 16th July
this coming saturday at MITC hall

excited? absolutely not~
scared? oh, yes i am!!!
more specific, too scared~

my sis seat for d exam three times
and d last exam she manage to go for next level
tapi dia sampai 2nd stage ajer
glupppppp..~

can you all imagine how tough to become PTD?
hmmmm, i start to search and read anything about PTD
tips, sample soalan, bukak balik buku sejarah time sekolah :p
current issue? oh, read and read..~ [agaknya ada tak soalan 'BERSIH'?] :D
and math? oh, yes i hate it but i have to revised
essay in malay about 400-500 words
essay in english about 200-300 words, damn..~!

okeh, aku mula rasa nak PITAM
just one week to study 'everything'
woahhhhhh, entah la..~
my sis cakap pegi ajer
get d experience as much as you can
yes, i will seat for d exam
just to test my ability :)
if Allah nak bagi, itu rezeki namanya

taknak fikir macam-macam
i know its too hard
just think that i want
d experience and feeling

*take an exam, again? hahaha. oh, i miss my student life..~
wish me all d best yah!

kawan-kawan

malam tadi rasa terpanggil

untuk sms semua kawan-kawan

yg ada dalam hanset saya ni

"semoga Allah sentiasa rahmati kawan saya ni

untuk hari-hari yg mendatang. selamat malam, salam.."

pada kamu dan kamu

yg mungkin tak dapat

doa saya ni, jangan risau yer

walau dimana kamu semua berada

doa saya sentiasa mengiringi hari-hari anda

kerana kamu dan kamu semua pernah

hadir dalam Denai KehidupanKu

sebagai kawan, teman dan sahabat

*saya sayang semua kawan saya! doakan utk saya juga yer :)

Puzzle

more puzzle in my head

more question in my mind

more negative thinking conquer myself

more and more is getting bigger now!

how should i stop from all of this?

*could someone answer for me, please?

won't

i won't start

i won't ask

i won't talk

i won't bother

anymore

just..stand where

i can see & hear

what will happen

*wish 'that' it won't happen again.

just go with the flow..~

i don't want to lost

what i have now

scared?

yes, i am!!!

so,

just go with d flow..~

that is d best for now!

until?

i don't even know

:|

*patience. i need it so badly. hmmm!

The Tao of Warren Buffett

"Happiness does not buy you money."

"Warren never confused being rich with happiness. We are talking about a guy who still hangs out with the same people he did in high school and still lives in the same neighborhood in which he grew up. Money hasn't changed who is on a fundamental level. When asked by college student to define success, he has said it is being loved by the people you hope love. You can be the richest man in the world, but without the love of family and friends, you would also the poorest.."

this is one of my favorite quote

by Warren Buffett

the second richest man in the world

my uncle give this book to me

a very good book to read

and i still read it again and again

wherever i have a free time

one quote before sleep

inspire, motivate and taught

me about many things

that impossible is possible

in this world

it is just a matter

of how we face it

believes in yourself

then you will know

what can you do!

the quote that i love most

by Warren Buffett is

"lives your life as simple as you are"

simple in everything,

one of Islamic ways of life

more about him

just click here

Warren Buffett

*i love to have a money but in d same time i don't want money conquer my mind. just like Warren Buffett said, happiness does not buy you money :)

Dear Rasyidah...

dear my beloved friend,

[you still remember those words syida? you wrote it for me 6 years ago.]

[1st pic was taken at dinner batch in 2007]

Yes, i have many friends but only a few besfriends, where i use to call them 'sahabat or teman'. i wanna share my stories one of my 'sahabat'. i met her 6 years ago during further my diploma at Kolej Profesional Mara Melaka. she is transfer student from batch senior because she want to change course so she join my batch in 2005. I'm doing my Entrepreneurship while she is in Accounting. i don't know how we can be so closed. i'm not her course-mate or even her roommate or housemate. we only met during prayer at surau, at college. yeah, we have same interest maybe. she invite me to join 'naqib naqibah'. and yeah, i joined not because of her. i just..like it. she help me a lot in accounting and economics. yeah i hate these 2 subjects! haha. we also joined JPA3 since it is compulsory to all students. so there is so much things that we shared together. thoughts about many things, ideas, brainstorm, argue sometime. hehe. she is best student in my batch. she is good in english. she is good in islamic. she is good in table tennis and many things. when i moved out from hostel, we don't have much time together. but still met at the college. yeah, time is running so fast. during in my final year 2006..i think in semester 5, there is something happen. the worst thing! i wish i could turn back for what had happen :( it is so tragic to share here. it make our relationship split. i don't know why, until today i still asked myself.."why it happen? i don't have the answer". then she transfer to KPM Beranang. since then, i lost contacts with her. but we managed to get back during our batch dinner on 2007. we not argue anymore, we just friends like before. but..not like our 1st met. hmmm..~ then, i know she further studies at Scotland in Accounting, then she get married with British man, Salahuddin Sheldon Stokes. we keep in touch through FB, chatting, and sometime she call me. after that, we just met eye on eye after 3 years. in 2010, during her walimah with Sheldon at Sungai Buloh. She gave birth Sufia Nafeesa Stokes on end of 2009 if i'm not mistaken. she still study and become a mother. so surprising me, she could managed to be a wife to a different cultural and religion husband, mother and student at the same time! she is a superwoman..!! i'm really adore and respect her because she could make one man from a different religion to become a muslim. that was so amazing! i'm so proud of you my friend...Rasyidah bt Abd Rahim :)

[during walimah syida & sheldon in 2010 at Sg Buloh. gazilion thanks to cik ain who bring & drive along d way from Melaka to Sg Buloh just to met syida, sufia & sheldon. i owe you forever ain..~]

still have many things to share here, maybe next entry. huhu. i'm so happy to see you happy syida!!! wish for your happines with your new family far away from Malaysia. hope you become a good wife, lovely ummi, true muslimah, and finish your study with a flying colors!!! i'm always pray for you my 'sahabat'. take care syida, big hug from me for sufia. she is an angel and amazing gift from Allah S.W.T. InshaAllah, amin!

forgive me for everything i had done to you, syida! i really wish that it won't happen but what is done can't be undone. its written to be happen. i want you to know that, i'm regret for what happen. maybe it our mistakes. Allah have decide what is d best for us. thank you become my 'sahabat' syida. love you, always!!!

*friends is a gift from Allah S.W.T. always appreciate our friends! say hi, pray for their happines, give a help if you can help. that is what friend for, right? :)