Cuba Untuk Faham

susah utk faham

aku cuba utk faham

sukarnya

tak faham dgn p'sahabatan kami

aku sendiri ingin ia b'akhir

macam tu jugak dia

aku kata tidak & paksa diri

utk kata 'cukuplah' setakat ini

macam tu jugak dgn dia

tp ada sesuatu yg buat ia sgt susah

sesuatu yg jadi pengikat

supaya p'sahabatan ini tak b'akhir

kadang-kala aku senang dgn keadaan ni

kami boleh b'ckp macam tak ada ape yg b'laku

dan sememangnya dia sahabat yg memahami

tapi ada ketika

aku yg teringat aku yg mencari

dia? wallahu'alam...

berkali ia terucap dari mulut kami

'ini yg terakhir kali' & 'lupakanlah'

tapi kami masih b'kongsi cerita itu & ini

seolah-olah tak ada ape yg berlaku

tapi dlm masa yg sama

entahlah...tak tahu nak cakap

tak tahu ape p'kataan yg sesuai

utk describe p'sahabatan kami

unik? mungkin...

ape yg uniknya aku pun tak tahu

hanya Allah saje yg tahu

hati kami p'sahabatan kami

ape pun yg bakal b'laku akan datang

aku hanya mampu serahkan pd Yang Esa

*Sahabat yg aku ada cuma boleh dibilang dgn jari. Tapi p'sahabatan yg satu ni sgt menguji diri ku. Yang pasti p'sahabatan kami adalah hubungan antara sahabat tak lebih dr itu. Aku sgt sayangkan p'sahabatan ni & sgt b'harap ia tak putus TAPI ada sesuatu...sangat sukar.

사랑 많은

나의 소중한 싶으로,

내 느낌은 여전히 남아있다. 비록 나에게는 정말 고통. 지금 당신은 항상 내 가슴속에 깊이까지 언제 위해서 모르겠어요. 난 몰라 여부 고백 그냥 날 기분 좋게하려는 마음의 밤 정말 진심이나하십시오. 날 위해 치료, 항상, 늘 내 주셔서 감사합니다, 우리가 공유하는 모든 기억에 대한 우리의 우정에 감사하고 모든 것에 감사 감사 날 보호해 주셔서 감사 때문에 감사합니다. 이것은 둘 다 실수 있습니다. 내가 시간을 되돌릴 수 있었으면 좋겠어. 하지만 다 좋은데, 그것이 나의 운명인데위한 일들을. 난 당신의 행복을하기 때문에 일단 만족, 나는 행복합니다 너무기도를 계속합니다.

사랑의 제비,

- ecah -

The Ocean Life

...and they said to the fish,

"You are a fish. You shall live in the water"

But the fish replied,

"No!" and grew wings...

*Love to talk with animal. Its like a therapy for me besides baked my cakes & cuppies.

(^_*)

Ketenangan Itu Tiada Harganya

aku rindukan MATAHARI

aku rindukan BULAN

tapi aku HANYA dapat lihat MATAHARI di siang hari BULAN di malam hari

jadi aku inginkan AWAN dimana IA dapat merasai KEHADIRAN matahari & bulan

AWAN menjadi SANG PENGHIJAB buat matahari & bulan

betapa aku IDAMKAN saat itu

*Aku sukakan awan, matahari terbit & terbenam, bulan, pantai, ombak & bintang. Tak kira lah waktu happy @ sedih semua benda ni sgt mendamaikan hati. CiptaanNYA yg amat indah & cantik ini tiada yg dapat tandingi. Masha Allah!

Buat Sahabat-sahabatKu

Sahabat itu umpama bayang-bayang
Sentiasa ada untuk berkongsi segala-galanya

Sahabat itu umpama cermin
Wajahnya sentiasa membuat hati ku tersenyum

Sahabat itu umpama langit-langit
Yang memberi perlindungan sedaya kudrat yang ada

Sahabat itu umpama coklat
Mencoret diri ku dengan pelbagai kemanisan

Sahabat itu umpama gunung
Penuh semangat dalam segala caturan yang ditempuh

Sahabat itu umpama bumi
Yang memberi persinggahan buat sementara waktu

Sahabat itu umpama sungai
Arusnya mengalir tenang yang mendamaikan jiwa ku

Sahabat itu umpama dedaun
Menghijau memberi nafas bagi mendenyutkan jantung ku

Sahabat itu umpama pelangi
Mewarnai dunia mewarnai kisah ku

Sahabat itu umpama mata pena
Yang tajam membela nasib ku bila ditomah

Sahabat itu umpama intan permata
Harta yang tersangat bernilai dalam hidup ku

Sahabat itu umpama pelita
Yang menerangi lorong gelap ku

Sahabat itu umpama kain putih
Hadirnya mencorakkan Denai KehidupanKu.

*Terima kasih pada mereka yang hadir dlm hidupku sebagai seorang SAHABAT. Sesungguhnya kamu dan kamu adalah anugerah Allah S.W.T yang tiada galang gantinya. Moga persahabatan kita ini diberkati, dirahmati & sentiasa dibawah lindungan Yang Maha Esa. Amen Ya Allah!

Wishes

Today is the last day in campus because after this we only have a practical training. I went to a few place. Place where we used lepak'ing, spend time together but i went there ALONE! I decide by myself without think this time.

Today i want to fulfill all our wishes and plan. Only this way make me more calm. Yeah, its really pain actually. See the place where we used to hangout all the time. I took half hour at the last place we meet. Too much memories. Big sigh. After i safely arrived at home, i feel more peaceful because i did it.

All our wishes our plan, done! Ouh, i forgot, still left 1 wishes. Genting. I know its impossible to make it alone but i will complete what we have planned. Maybe someday, but i will try.

My decision make me regret for the rest of my life. I lost my bestfriend forever. I lost my precious. Because of too much thinking and too emotional also. I wish i could turn back the time. Please forgive me. And i already forgive your mistake. This is our khilaf. Everyone do a mistake.

*Everything happen is for good. Lets Allah decide for our journey.

If He want us to meet again in the future, i will be the lucky person.

if not, its a destiny for both of us.

I Could Not Bear This Feeling

what would you do if someone told you

'don't worry..after this you will not see my face anymore'

speechless? wanna hard cry? wanna run & run?

but one thing is that

i feel guilty

don't know who is supposed to be blame

because i'm who in pain

but its a hard time to confess

yes, i cried a lot

never ever thought the ending like this

we used to be laugh together

sharing all the happiness & sadness

talking this & that

sometime i wish i could turn back to

16 Nov 2009 where its begin

the time where we just an ordinary friends

should i call?

i don't know

but deep in my heart

we always best friends forever & ever

*If my happiness that make you do all this thing, you were wrong! I'm happy if you're happy. That's it.

Selamat Hari Ibu

Buat mak saya Puan Zainab Bt Bakar
Selamat Hari Ibu

terima kasih mak sebab lahirkan adik
terima kasih sebab selalu ada
tak kira waktu susah, senang, sedih @ happy
mak bukan sekadar mak
tp mak lah kawan, teman & sahabat dunia akhirat
mak terlalu memahami diri ini
tak ada satu rahsia pun antara kami

kadang-kala sering-kali aku t'fikir
boleh ker aku jd spt mak satu hari nanti?
mak manusia yg plg penyabar & kuat
aku sgt kagum sgt admire
mak heroin dlm duniaku

maafkan adik utk segalanya
byk khilaf yg diri ini buat mak t'rasa hati
tp adik nak mak tahu
adik sayang mak
terlalu sayang
sangat..sangat..sangat

terima kasih sekali lagi mak
utk segala-galanya

(",)

*Seorang lelaki datang kepada Rasulullah saw, kemudian berkata: “Wahai Rasulullah, siapakah manusia yang paling berhak aku layani dengan baik?” Beliau bersabda: “Ibumu.” Orang itu bertanya lagi: “Kemudian siapa?” Beliau menjawab: “Ibumu.” Orang itu bertanya lagi: “Kemudian siapa?” Beliau menjawab: “Ibumu.” Lalu orang itu bertanya lagi : “Kemudian siapa?” Beliau berkata : “Ayahmu.” -Abu Hurairah ra.-

It's Over

finally

all DONE

after two & half years

all the hard work

all the stress

all the challenge

its come to the END

study like a heaven

and its just once life

only left one step

before my GRADUATION

the practical training

best wishes to me

BUT its too early

to come at the conclusion

waiting for the result

counting the days

tik tok tik tok

ouh, i hate it

only this time

i'm too scared

too obsess also

to know my final exam

because only Allah & me know

what i have done to all my paper

hoping and keep on praying

for the miracle