I Saw Something Yesterday

i dunno how to feel

surprise? shock?

but..its more to sadness

what is it?

what i saw?

this thing mess my day

drowns all my mood

but..i realize

i don't have any right to feel all this

but..i'm just a normal person

i can't close my heart to the things i don't want to feel

ouh, damn! please..

i don't know until when to face all this feelings

its almost 3 months already

i thought i strong enough

the outside part..yes

BUT

the inside part..not yet

i laugh out loud

i make a joke, silly & folly things

enjoying my days with family & friends

kill my time with non-stop reading

become pom-pom girl for my petanque team for Sukma

what you all see for almost 3 months back

i just can say..is not me

i'm wearing a mask like a clown

always smile, laughing out loud, happy, joking, calm

only that way make me STOP thinking

hypocrite? plastic?

who cares! its my life

3 years from now..2013

until the day come

maybe..i will let it go

all those feelings & memories

its must END.FINISH. FULL-STOP.

but..in the meantime this feeling still remain

i know it so STUPID to keep it

i just don't know why

maybe that is what we called..The Power of Love

*i miss Mc Flurry+Fries, i miss Roti John. conclusion is i miss many things !!! long sigh*